Monday, October 12, 2009

holding steady.

Entering the 22nd week of pregnancy and feeling . . . .fine. Just fine. The belly is growing, but is so far not unmanageable. Thankfully, it is now big enough to say baby- not scream it, but state it clearly. At times it feels like this pregnancy is speeding away from me- how we are more than half way there is beyond me. At other times it feels like this is taking forever! I am super excited to see Anyara, but I am terrified that once I do, the whole process of being a mom will be overwhelming. I am actually more terrified of nursing than giving birth. I am frankly a little bit obsessed with the whole nipple thing. Su and No just gave birth and due to the complications from labor, they are unable to nurse. For some reason that possibility freaks me out more than my ass ripping open. Go figure.

Anyways, we are on our second day of SNOW. I repeat, snow. So the garden is done and I am desperately waiting for the maternity coat I ordered from the GAP. I am also desperately waiting for MEA. Conferences are tomorrow, and I am STRESSED. I can not wait to wake up Thursday morning and smell the . . .well at least not smell the 4th graders. I can't wait!

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