Just kicking it.

So for weeks I have been trying to get S to feel the pulsing in my stomach. As each week passes, it seems more and more obvious to me, but so far there has been no luck. Last night as we were going to bed were were doing our traditional day close- take the vitamins, good thing-selfish thing-and good thing about S. As we finished chatting about the day he reached over and as he adjusted his cuddle position to feel the belly before we prayed, she did this huge kick. I asked him if he had felt anything, and his eyes just lit up. I rotated to the right side, where she seems to kick a lot at night, and he was able to feel a lot more thumping.

It was so cool to finally share that moment with him. Truly cool and special. Baby is on her way!

shy.

What do shy people do when they are pregnant? Seriously, I know that every time I walk into a room of people who know me, that my belly and its growth will be the primary topic of conversation. I typically don't give a shit, but even I had to feel a little odd when I went to meet my parents at Bonanza in St. Cloud. All eyes (and hands) were on the bump. It was the first opportunity that our family had to celebrate St and Da's birthday together as everyone but me was attending El's 90th birthday earlier in the day. I refused to go as it was a Konsor event, but was happy to meet up after. Even though it was Bonanza and St. Cloud, AND several mentally retarded guests. . . .I did really well. Being so close to Ed's birthday and all of those old memories I was nervous, but I didn't freak out- it was nice to see that those times are woven into my life rather than something I am hiding from.

On baby notes, I have been cleaning a lot lately. Su finishing up the stairs has really helped in that effort as now I can get up and down the stairs on my own. I have been scrubbing and organizing and moving things about. Part of this is the fact that we are going to have St and Su's birthday here at our house. I am a little nervous about that, but feel that we have made enough progress to get it all done in time to make the house presentable. The next big problem on the horizon is baby shower and baby registry related. But for now I am putting that off.

holding steady.

Entering the 22nd week of pregnancy and feeling . . . .fine. Just fine. The belly is growing, but is so far not unmanageable. Thankfully, it is now big enough to say baby- not scream it, but state it clearly. At times it feels like this pregnancy is speeding away from me- how we are more than half way there is beyond me. At other times it feels like this is taking forever! I am super excited to see Anyara, but I am terrified that once I do, the whole process of being a mom will be overwhelming. I am actually more terrified of nursing than giving birth. I am frankly a little bit obsessed with the whole nipple thing. Su and No just gave birth and due to the complications from labor, they are unable to nurse. For some reason that possibility freaks me out more than my ass ripping open. Go figure.

Anyways, we are on our second day of SNOW. I repeat, snow. So the garden is done and I am desperately waiting for the maternity coat I ordered from the GAP. I am also desperately waiting for MEA. Conferences are tomorrow, and I am STRESSED. I can not wait to wake up Thursday morning and smell the . . .well at least not smell the 4th graders. I can't wait!